Losing Everything

Losing Everything 🌌

I've lost many things in life! I've lost money, I lost time, and I've had investments stolen by people I thought I could trust. I was conned by faces who advertised more "faith" than the church's Sunday paper. But out of all the things I've lost, how come losing you hurts the most? I've walked through the gates of hell; there, I faced many demons. Some became my friends, and some became my foes. The latter group was often slaughtered by my sword of wit. Yet none of them came close to touching my heart, let alone the burn marks my footsteps left in the grass.

To some, I’m an angel performing miracles. To others, I rule the lower kingdom, serving them the justice of their own actions—making them swallow their arrogance until their egos explode. It takes only seconds to destroy their carefully built worlds.

But with you? I am neither demon nor angel. I am an alien. 👽

My heart, untouchable by worldly desires, is drowning in the passion of your brown eyes. They glow like planets from a far-off constellation that only my heartbeat recognizes. Your voice echoes comfort—a treasure of peace that my soul values. Sweet melodies that make me want to pull you closer and hold on forever! I don't know what cruel fate brought us together, just to pull us further from each other.

My heart, this same wretched heart that makes me feel joy and sadness when thinking about you, has become a magnet! It constantly seeks you, no matter how close to my chest I try to keep it. There are so many desires I've kept hidden from you!

Out of all the options who offer themselves for a view of my garden, why does the one that waters my soul have to be you? With barely any effort, you stir an ocean of emotions within me. Emotions I never knew I was capable of feeling until the day I met you.

Maybe that's the reason that no matter how many wars I've won or battle scars I've gained, the one I fear facing the most is you. This treacherous heart has stopped being loyal to its owner and only seeks comfort in your arms. A dream that might never come true. Still, it's a dream that often creeps into my mind. I shake each thought of you and the pain that comes with you from my subconscious. Yet you still creep in—a thief who steals my peace. Even as I'm getting older, the misery has made me colder! ❄️

I've lost many things in life! Money, time, business, lovers, battles, and many competitions. But how come, out of all of it, losing you is what hurts the most? Those bright, glowing brown eyes remain distant stars from another constellation. A place in the universe where this alien wishes she could gaze into them a bit longer. It seems in them, I have many more mysteries to uncover.

All of that now remains a distant dream. I'll cherish you in that realm. When life has us both overwhelmed, remember that although we've lost each other, in this wretched heart of mine, there will always be a space for my favorite lover!

Some things were meant to be lost. Some things were meant to be forgotten. But if I could go back in time, you'd be the one thing I'd hold on to the most.