Shadows Of Love

Sometimes you must shuffle the deck a few times to be dealt the right hand. And sometimes you meet that King Of Hearts in the first move that the game will demand. In the shadows of love, there are many secrets hidden. Something about you felt familiar, calm, and at the same time forbidden. I wonder what the universe was conspiring when our paths crossed. From a distance, I felt your eyes capture my soul. Maybe this is a story that should never be told! But they say that if you want to enter the paradise of lovers you have to pay the toll! A friend once asked me a question, he said: " What is it you are looking for now that we are getting old?". I told him I wanted someone who could spark my mind, soul, and maybe my inner sexual being. After he exposed the beauty hidden in my poetry, thoughts kept flirting with this hidden feeling. Sometimes we need the right people to ask us the right questions! But sometimes when the ones we hide in our hearts want to know, you stand there trembling as if you don't know the answers. You want to yell the answers out from your lungs, but your mind knows better. Ah, here comes my old friend, the mind of course she had to claim her spot in this letter! In a world where everyone fights to be understood and few try to understand, it's hard to rely on someone to hold your hand. Yet my curse seems to be the opposite! It is the gift that blessed me with the beauty of this portrait! A portrait I call my life where the Gods have blessed me with a universal throne of love. When your soul has traveled through time and beyond, feeding the tribe is an instinct that arises naturally as the Queen living inside me knows exactly what's her next move. You said you saw me, but sometimes I wonder if you really see me? Or are we living different lives and realities? Distracted by my faults, you don't see the diamond in the mud. You saw the image of me and formed your own narrative of the spilled blood. You saw the dirt on my hands and assumed it was all there was to me.  My entire life people have tried to place me in boxes. I took their assumptions as a package from the universe and unfolded its lessons as if they were secret messages. My mission on Earth is not to correct your assumptions of who you think I am. Yet when your eyes crossed mine for the first time my soul recognized yours from the shadows of love and I felt my heart scream damn! The first time we met, we didn't talk or come close. Yet I could feel your eyes pierce through my masks and my angel wings were exposed! But the thing about Angels is that they look a lot like devils. Your eyes had the kind of flames that asked for trouble, they asked me: "Hello beautiful, do you know where hell is?". If I could go back in time, I'd say hell is being so close to someone yet so far away. But if we're going to be honest, maybe I never wanted you to stay. People think that to love is to possess! But when you've wandered through the shadows of love, you know it's not about lust or the wealth you possess. After all, souls own nothing but the beauty of their being! I admired you like a work of art, for a long time, you were the muse behind my writing. Yet, words could not come close to explaining that burning passion. The kind that only happens once every millennium but the burning ache it leaves behind feels like an eternal prison. Unconditional love only appears when divine beings cross each other paths. In that moment their soul remembers their shared pasts. Tasked with the burdens of the universe they let their hearts burn for each other. Although they both have the strength and magic to make time and the universe wait, they choose to be better. Their paths cross for a few seconds before they resume the journey. Their unconditional love spreads like electric sparks as the moment becomes as sweet as honey. Without giving each other an embrace their love fills them with the Godly strength to face what's ahead. When they both were ready to take their next step it seemed like they were reaching towards each other for a kiss on the forehead.  A moment so beautiful that even the sun couldn't outshine them being together. The scales of destiny caused their path to be divided at that exact point. They pull out their swords and go in different directions to fight battles of the world, hoping that a thousand years will pass like seconds so they can be rejoined. That small moment they shared is enough to last for the next thousand years. They understand and recognize each other as deities that have no fears. Her steps move swifter and faster. She carves her sword with her heart. She does this because she knows that when they meet again in the shadows of love, he will be the one to reawaken her heart.